I have a sudden feeling of feeling withdrawn. I feel like seeing myself as a freelancer who belongs to nobody, it's just my craft and me. After the party, I ended up with a question, what's my real purpose. Is this the fun I really wanted or just a mere fact of getting carried away. But I still feel totally different among the others. I know I'm highly individualistic and somehow I still don't want to make friends with them. I have my own ways... and I grew tired of pleasing people and yet I still love my work so much. I don't even feel like talking with them. It's always the same - the frustrations, never ending audit issues and cold colleagues like zombies. Somehow I want to conceal my mind and stop listening to them. I want to remain positive.
Tomorrow, I'll keep myself silent and don't push to much. I don't want to expect anything because in the end, it's just me. Perhaps I don't want to tag myself with anybody. There are so many things I want to do, I'll focus on them.
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